Jayme's Journal

It’s 3 in the morning. I am lying on the bed, my baby girl snuggled next to me, her arm wrapped around my neck. And I’m blogging. Thanks to this lovely Android my loving hubby gave me as an advance birthday gift, I can now blog however, wherever: standing up, lying down, in the bedroom or in the bathroom. Well, almost everywhere.

There have been a number of times that  I’ve found myself wide awake in the wee hours of the morning, wanting to read something or write something. It’s the second day of my most favorite month of the year. Right now, I want to write how grateful I am to be finally free again.

I officially said goodbye to the bundy clock yesterday. I was supposed to write about it yesterday too. In fact, the post is in my drafts entitled First Day. But since I spent the first few hours of my freedom day running a 10k, I was too spent to write anything coherent. So here I am writing Second Day.

I am so grateful not just because I have free time to fulfill my motherly duties, but also because now, I have honored my truth. I’ve always known that I thrive better in wide spaces and free time. But for three years, I ignored that truth, tried to bury it even. It was only a matter of time before I shriveled inside the box I put myself in.

I am so grateful to my compassionate boss who helped me get out of that box and set myself free. I am so grateful to my understanding husband for supporting my decision, unconditionally.

Now I can see a world of possibilities opening up before me. I am loving my work again. I am fired up to work on the things I love to do. I am motivated to do more.

Lesson learned: always be true to yourself. While it’s also true that you can choose to thrive where you are planted, I also believe that you can choose to go where you will grow.

Here’s to passion and freedom.

Posted on: February 2, 2011
Posted in: Daily life lessons
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