A flash of inspiration.

The perfect words to illustrate my thoughts.

The time that never came.

Something that my soul friend A told me last night jolted me.

No matter how long my sentences would get or how few my words would be, I just need to let go,

Release.

And that would be enough.

Two words that would best describe me now:

TWILIGHT CRAZY.

It’s the first day of the last month of the year and I’m going to blog.

I’m trying to set aside all thoughts of work because I want to relax today. I am taking a break because I need it and I deserve it.

I am going to just sit back, put my feet up and type away at my laptop. I’m going to pretend I’m sitting on the shore of a peaceful beach with a chocolate cake and a chocolate milkshake by my side table.

Next to my birthday month, December is my favorite time of the year. Most people are happy in December and there’s always lots of money and gifts going around.

December is also Kernan’s birthday month and our second wedding month. Wow, can you believe how time seems to whoosh by in the blink of an eye?

I am thankful that we are ending the year in a high note. We’ve met some pretty rough times in the beginning of the year but in the end, everything works out just fine.

I always choose to focus on our blessings.

I love my regular job. Although I’m not really crazy about the bundy clock and time adjustments, I love what I’m doing. I just remember that my regular job is what allows me to have holidays like the one I’m enjoying now. Plus, getting to wear office clothes is kinda cool too.

I’m also thankful that I discovered another way to fulfill one of my most important dreams.

I have got the knowledge, I just have to deal with the hard part which is applying what I’ve learned.

I’ve been sitting on the fence for so long, always waiting for perfection or an easy way out.

But I am resolving that I’m going to do it now. I know what I can accomplish will definitely be life-changing not just for me but for the ones I love the most.

December is a good month and I’ll make the most of it.

2009 seems only a breath away.

I know I’m going to make it my year.

What are your thoughts in December?

They wouldn’t do it had they known better.

When someone does the unthinkable, it simply means he wasn’t thinking at the moment. He didn’t know better. And don’t we all have those moments?

It’s just sad when I learned from my soul friend that she was betrayed by someone we both respected.

The person who taught us about the principles of credibility and accuracy was the same one who violated them.

Maybe some people thought it was nothing serious and may even think what was done was right.

But I think, when someone’s job became at risk because of what you did, you better take it seriously.

Take it very seriously.

Especially when you’re the one who was wrong.

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I got your back, girl.

I’m always here.

I’ve always taken a healthy pride in my own work and I work hard whether others appreciate me or not.

I’ve always thought that it didn’t matter so much if others praised me just as long as I am confident in myself.

But sometimes, when you’ve worked so hard, you cant help but yearn for at least some support.

Just a little something to keep you motivated when your own supply of self-affirmation runs out.

Awhile ago, I got so disappointed because I felt like my efforts were not valued at all.

But then I realized that even if I had no control over how other people act, I have a choice on how I would react.

I could wallow all I want.

Or I could simply move on.

So I chose to move on.

I will still work as hard as I always do.

And at the end of the day, I will still tell myself, “Thank you!”

I know, tomorrow will be a better day.

I can’t believe it’s been almost two months since I last posted here.

No wonder I’ve been feeling so stressed.

I’ve been busy trying to make a living, I forgot how to live my life.

Big lessons I learned from the past two months:

• ALWAYS MAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF.
• MAKE TIME TO DO THE THINGS YOU LOVE EVERYDAY.
• ACCEPTANCE IS ONE OF THE KEYS TO PEACE OF MIND.
• IT’S OKAY TO START SMALL.
• WHEN IT COMES TO LIFE’S DIRECTIONS, MOVING FORWARD IS THE BEST WAY TO GO.

It’s amazing how we meet people at certain points in our lives.

A recent acquaintance told me it was his journal that kept him sane during those days in the island.

He reminded me that if I needed some time to breathe, all I needed to do was write.

And I resolve to do more of that from now on.

I’ve been missing in action for more than a week.

That’s because I’ve been been busy managing other people’s blogs and websites. That’s what I do for a living now. (It’s kinda cool to be called a “webmaster.”)

Sadly, it has taken over my life to the point that I barely have time for my babies and my blogs.

But, and this is a BIG BUT, this is only a temporary situation.

I’m still getting the hang of getting things done in my massive to do list quickly and efficiently in one day.

Add to that the slipping accident I had last week which caused me excruciating back pain for days.

Actually, it still hurts until now but I’m trying to ignore it in the hopes that when I wake up the next day, all the pain will just go away.

I miss my babies.

I miss my blogs.

I miss talking to my friends, online and off.

I’ve got a lot of blog posts and plans brewing in my mind but they have to take a backseat for now.

But I will continue to blog whenever I can, even if they are just short bursts of inspiration.

After all, this is my relaxing haven and online heaven.

And I can never let blogging go.

Thank you for your comments.

I do read them and appreciate them.

I’m just hanging around here.

Hope to be back with another post soon.

Will you still be here when I come back?

One of the best lessons I learned about writing this week:

Set your words free, let your thoughts flow and write like there’s no tomorrow.

I was trying to write a post for one of my blogs and it was taking me forever to get it done.

After every few sentences or so, I’d pause to re-read what I’ve written and ask myself,

Is this the right way to say it?
It doesn’t seem fluid enough.
Maybe I should reword it like this.

Needless to say I never get past the introductory paragraphs.

I got stuck and just stopped writing altogether.

When all I really needed to be was…

Be an imperfect writer

The problem with perfectionist writing is it hampers the flow of creative thought.

You become too concerned with creativity and fluidity that you end up losing both altogether.

I was sitting in front of my computer wondering how I was going to write. But I kept typing and hitting back space over and over.

Until I just decided I had enough.

To heck with creativity and fluidity.

I’m just gonna type whatever comes to my mind and deal with the finished post later.

I quit trying to be an expert wannabe who wanted to let the world see that I know it all.

I just wrote from my experience because that’s what I know.

I wrote from my heart because that’s where my words are.

And almost instantly, my words started to flow.

Suddenly, writing became so easy and effortless.

Do you experience writing blocks?

If you do, the best way to get rid of it is just start writing.

Just write.

It doesn’t matter if your words don’t make sense the first time, the important thing is to just stimulate the flow of words.

Once you’ve loosened up you’ll find that it gets easier and easier with each word, each sentence, each paragraph, each page…

Another important thing to remember when you write:

Focus on your work and don’t read somebody else’s!

You have your own thoughts and voice. Let them be heard through your writing.

Everyone has a wonderful story to tell, feel free to share yours because it is as important and as special as everybody else’s

What is the greatest writing lesson you’ve learned?

Focus on one thing at a time. Do it!

Sounds simple right? Not really.

The moment I go online, a lot of things are competing for my attention: Gmail, Plurk, Twitter, Google Feedreader to name just a few. I get so sidetracked that I end up accomplishing nothing.

Add to that almost a decade of my life being trained to multi-task and to accomplish so many things at the same time that my brain has become hyperactive.

Back then, I thought it was being efficient and productive.

Now, I realize it’s just plain crazy.

So this month, I’m going back to basics.

I’m just using my journal and making a simple numbered list for the day.

I tried it for one day and it worked really well.

I listed down everything I wanted to do then I focused on one thing and accomplished it before moving on the to next item.

I became more productive instantly.

Today would be a good day to start again.

Call it my September resolution.

Do you have a resolution for the month?

I have a confession to make: one of my greatest dreams was to become an angel.

I remember watching “City of Angels” and thinking how awesome it would be to be an angel who could be anywhere in the world in a heartbeat.

I knew then that, when I die, I’d become an angel wearing a pink and white robe guiding and inspiring people right when they need it.

I was so taken by this idea that I even wrote about it in my first ever blog post back in November 2004:

Do you know what it’s like to be an angel?

I can’t remember exactly when the idea struck me. Maybe it was my fascination with wings, the idea of flying through the clouds, being able to hear prayers and wishes, or guarding someone on earth.

I just realized my greatest dream is to become an angel.

When i told a friend about it, he said i was weird. How can you aspire to become something that you aren’t even sure exists?

I just believe.

I said i would let him know if or when i do get to fulfill that dream. But i never got the chance, he went way ahead of me.

Now i guess i don’t have to prove it to him, he already knows.

Most of the time, I forget him. I guess it’s my defense mechanism against all the pain we went through, I’m not sure if I ever really healed.

But every now and then, I try to remember if only to relive the good times and thank him again for changing my life.

Now I think, it’s not so bad when i finally go to that other place. At least I know, someone would be there to reach for my hand.

Though i have my own angel on earth, you are my angel in heaven.

This post was dedicated to a friend who did not believe in angels. But I sure hoped that despite that, he became an angel nonetheless after he died.

The angel on Earth I wrote about was my then boyfriend, now my hubby, Kernan.

We call each other Angel because we inspire and motivate each other to be the best versions of ourselves.

When our daughters were born, we also called them our angels because they moved us to be the best parents.

A lot of things have changed since that entry four years ago.

I still dream of becoming an angel but I realized I don’t need to die to make it a reality.

I’ve seen a lot of angels all around me with no white wings, flowing robes, or heavenly voices.

They just go around helping and guiding people even if they don’t know it

Are you an angel?

You probably are. You could be.

Be a helper. Extend a helping hand whenever you can, no matter how small the effort. Something that may seem so insignificant to you may mean the world to another.

Be an inspiration. Life can be a real pain sometimes, we all know that to be true. But face your struggles with courage and always focus on the good and the best. People who are having the same struggles may be inspired with your example.

Be a guide. When you do something or you know something so well, share your skill or knowledge. Giving and sharing to others won’t threaten your position or possessions. Generosity stimulates the flow of blessings that will surely come back to you.

Be a listener. Sometimes, all people need is a good listener. You don’t even need to talk or give sage advice. Just listen. Really, really focus your attention to the other person’s need and really listen.

Can you be an angel?